Meetings of Two
Different People
When Miss S and Mister T’s Path Met
I
shall tell you a story of how I met him.
1st
New Year’s Day– January 1, 2015, few minutes past after 12:00am. He walked
to me and introduced himself, he thought I was an Indonesian. His name is
Tomas. He said lately, that we’ve been together for over 45minutes which
surprise me. I can’t even remember it. He just keep popping up my side.
2nd
January 5, 2015. I met him unexpectedly in JIH computer laboratory 5
minutes before 14:00 for my Computer network exam. I thought I was seeing a
ghost. I wasn’t sure if it is him at all so I walked past him. I was totally
under spell the moment our eyes met. Why was he wearing green of all the day? I
have weaknesses in green. He reminds me of summer.
3rd
January 12, 2015. The stupid I went to JIH hoping to catch a glimpse of
him. Crazy isn’t it? I have been there for almost 30minutes, but there’s no
sign of him. I gave up and walked out of the lab when I saw the object of my
admiration standing near the exit door. I had a chance to have eye to eye
contact with him which caused me to shy away. I couldn’t utter a single word.
He finally said “hi” to me. I walked past him but managed to say “nice to meet
you again”
~ I
cannot stop thinking of him feeling guilty of ignoring him. I managed to find
him on Facebook and get to talk to him and apologize for my behaviour. Well, it
was nothing to him. Quite disappointed. He invited me to go to reception~
4th
January 23, 2015. I visited him in
JIH reception where he was working. I was there for 2 hours, standing, really
pissed off. What a very un-gentleman! He kept me standing for long hour… geez!
I get to know him a bit. He loves science- that no doubt. He also have passion
for crafts which I find rather interesting. I was so uncomfortable that I can’t
appreciate him.
5th
I don’t remember the date, but this time he is much nicer. He invited me to
sit inside the reception room. We talked for long hours and that was really
fun. I like him today except when he makes fun of others. It was rude.
6th
February 13, 2015. He invited me to join a Sushi Asian Event where we had
to cook our own country dish. I met him along the corridor. I met great people
today, new friends perhaps. When we finished eating, we went over to JIH pub
and had a drink. I was busy talking to Yuki and Alex and didn’t bother talking
to him. We talked a little. I just don’t
like this side of him. I always prefer friendly people like Alex. He’s not!
7th
February 15, 2015. We met around 10:30 PM for star gazing. I was annoyed to
him to be honest. He was so inconsiderate not to adjust his pacing. I couldn’t
catch up. When he finally realized it, he slow down a bit. When we get to the
forest, he started hunting while I was busy gazing at the sky. He appreciates
the stars because of science, and I appreciate it because of its beauty. I
mentioned stupid thing like planets being a star. Haha… I only realized my
mistake when I said it. I confused reality from the anime I watched! I knew
that the only stars in the solar system is the sun. We tried to get to another
spot for better view however, the way up there is quite complicated. He didn’t
even offer his hands to help me! A torn pricked my finger and it bleed. It
hurts surely! He was ignorant of it. I must thank him for helping me freed my
hair when it got stuck by the tree branch though. When we decided to leave, he tried to lead the
way and eventually taking the wrong path. He lost a piece part of his
flashlight making my phone as the only source of light. I lead the way and this
time he offered his hand for help! He is kind this time. We went to another forest for another viewing.
He is getting nicer I swear. I can laugh at ease now. It was a long walk, but
we had a decent conversation. When we
reached our destination, my phone battery is now empty and it was dark. Ah, I
must admit, he is quite a gentleman. Who would have thought of that! What a
mystery man he is. He invited me for a tea in his dorm and I get to see another
messy room. Haha. I get to see his love for science and how he can freely laugh.
He listened to different music genre and even classical. Saw some of his crafty
works. It was a wonderful visit that ends around 2:20am. It’s very late
already. He was kind enough to open the door because my ISIC id doesn’t work in
JIH. Evening ends.
8th
February 16, 2015. I bumped into him 11:12am when I was on my way to my
next class. He stopped and waited for me. That’s rather shocking! He is nice
indeed! If I see him first, I’ll probably just acknowledge him and leave. I’m
always like that.
9th
February 17, 2015. He invited me for a drink in Tuesday, but since I have a
class next day, I declined. I invited him for a drink and we supposed to meet
in JIH but it was closed. We met along the way and head over to Kruhac. We
drink and talked. It was quite uncomfortable. I found myself unable to speak.
Why!!! My mind is empty whenever I’m with him! He had to always start the
conversation and ask question which I answered simply. I was quite drunk and
finally decided to go to dance floor. It was fun! I was finally able to get rid
of my uncomfortably and freely danced with him. We talked a little while
dancing, but because he is way taller, I don’t want to tire him by always
trying to lower his head.
10th
February 18, 2015. He invited me to join him and his friend Alba to Old
Town Square to watch some Chinese show and also went to Botanical Garden. This
man is a stranger to me. He was a different person…
As
if he isn’t the man I was dancing the other night. I went to JIH pub late night
with Ada, and he was there. Well, I was trying to ignore him and just have a
short casual talk. When JIH closed, we
moved to Kruhac. When we arrived there, someone was toying my hair, I thought
it was tsu tsu, but when I turned around, I saw him. We grabbed our drinks and
sat. He was sitting beside me though we’re not having a conversation because I
was busy talking with ada, tsu tsu and wes. I was still trying to ignore him. I
spilled my beer in the mid of conversation and he handed me a tissue. Noza
exchanged her glass of beer to me. So my glass is full again. I poured half of
it to Tomas. The mood between us lighten and we started talking. He even tapped
my head as if I was a little child. We finally able to speak and smile to each
other. I had a shot of vodka with cherry which made me even more drunk. I knew
well I was tipsy already and so I went to the toilet. When I get back to my sit
he asked me if I’m alright. I said yes J
He helped me finished my drink. We had a conversation with Wes and Tsu tsu and
I ended up tearing up an old case of cigarette and asked me what I’m doing. Wes
thought it was kind of art work, while he asked if I’m nervous. He was
caressing my hand. We then proceeded to 221, Hani’s room and was offered a
glass of rhum? I’m not sure with the name, but it was really strong. I tried to
drink it, and was offered again, Tomas knew well, I cannot handle it anymore,
and drink it. We were so closed this time, he was so nice. I feel so at ease
that I was tapping his legs, and have our hands closely tied up. I can still remember
his touch. It was so comforting. I can feel his arms around my waist too. It
was so sweet. And we’re talking so close. He was so different this time. Tsu
tsu said I was with a good man which confused me and asked him who is it? Tsu
tsu didn’t answer me. So I asked Tomas, and he said, it was him. I don’t
remember if I smile in acknowledgement, but I knew he is a good man. Ah! I
remembered when I heard the song Macarena, he and I danced it. It was so cute!
I wish he can always be like this. I really love this side of him. The
wonderful evening has to end even if I don’t want to. He said, we had to leave.
Probably noticed my drunken state and that I’m already sleepy. I stood and said
goodbye, and then walked out of the room. I didn’t even wait for him. I just
took the stairs and went to my room. I had to.
11th
February 20, 2015. He invited me for a coffee in the reception, but I said,
I do not drink coffee so he offered me tea instead. Why do I feel that the
person in the reception and the man last night are completely different person?
So confusing. This man is rather cold. I appreciate the tea and the invitation
to sit inside but again, I found myself so uncomfortable that I wish I can run
away. Thankful, I had to leave. I was
getting uncomfortable with the questions he is throwing at me.
12th
February 21, 2015. I went to JIH pub when my friend invited me. He was also
there. We were sitting apart from each other and didn’t manage to talk much. I
can see how tired he is just by looking at him.
13th
February 22, 2015. I left my room pissed off because my friend’s roommate
came over and it was noisy. I intended to go to church and anywhere where my
feet will bring me but who would have thought, I’ll accidentally bumped into
him. Yes, right. The man with green eyes whose name is Tomas. Since I do not
have any concrete plan, when he invited me to join him for Exhibition in Prague
Castle, I joined him. I noticed he keeps on slouching, so told him to avoid it.
He apparently have scoliosis. I kinda pity him for having to always lower his
head down to reach out to small people. I did have fun in the exhibition
because this is my thing. He is fun to be with too. The more I get to know him
the more I realize he is a kind-hearted person. It was a good day indeed.
14th
February 24, 2015. I met him today
at Starometska station and watched a movie. We were running and I was catching
my breath. We arrived almost in time, and managed to get a good seat. He is
certainly a weirdo! He was laughing so loud! But that was kinda cute. Obviously
quite uncomfortable with his position. He is too big for that though. I
couldn’t get to rest my right arm because his arm is there! We talked a little about
the movie. Today, hasn’t end yet, we might meet later and drink. I missed my class to go with him. I’ve never
done something silly like this, so I thought it was fun, besides I am eager to
watch the movie.
I
think it was I who asked if I can join him for a drink. Wrong move! But I
really want to drink and party, though I know I can join my friends in JIH but
I chose to go with him. So there must be really something? Nut’s isn’t it? I’m
a weirdo indeed. So here’s the thing, we met in JIH dormitory and headed to
Club C. Grab a drink and take a seat for
few moments, he really wanted to dance! We watched a short performance and
started dancing. I can really feel his hands moving my body! I just enjoy the
fun and let it slide. We grab another
drink and decided to seat where we get closer and dancing while playing like a
child. I really like this side of him. He can go down to my level of
childishness. We went to the dance floor once more until 2am and moved to
Kruhac and continue dancing. This is where all my confusion begun. We were
dancing more close or shall I say intimate? He was touching my butt and his
face was so close to mine that if I didn’t move, our lips will surely meet. I
asked him if he was trying to kiss me, and he said yes. I was shocked! I asked
why, he said because he likes me. That even made me more astonished. How come?
He said, that I like him too and that I was flirting with him. I was completely
taken aback. I have no idea about it. I did surely like him, but flirt him? I
just really wanna go out and have fun, it’s a pretty exciting feeling to cut
your class and go on a movie, and I do love the star gazing too, except the
moments in the reception. I thought I was being friendly! And that adding on
facebook, okay, I admit to that, I was really eager to find him and make amends
for my bad behaviour and let’s just say I was really mesmerized to him the last
time I saw him. He seems so worn out. I tried explaining myself but don’t know
if it works at all. I really don’t like being misunderstood.
We
have decided to go and leave kruhac and went to my dorm... Well, just in
reception and we tried to understand each other. It was a really sweet moment
when he said he wants to be with me. That gives me a chill. I will not deny
that I really feel good whenever I’m in his arm and when he is caressing my
palm. But I am really not sure whether I have the same affection like him. My
obstinacy is really something I can’t handle. OMG. I’m so confused, clueless, I
have no idea of what to do, what to say, at all. There is also no doubt that I
am stupid, naïve and impossible!
15th
February 26, 2015. We met in Kruhac during the beer pong competition. I was
busy cheering for my team but I know he’s there already. I just pretended I
didn’t see him so he will approach me first. :D
Why
is it than when we’re apart, we’re like strangers to each other? Gets quite
uncomfortable. He invited me to go to his room and watch a movie. I said yes,
wrong move again! A decent girl should not accept such invitation coz it might
mean something. Oh well, I don’t care. I want to get out of Kruhac nevertheless.
Hmm… We dropped by to a room where there’s an ongoing birthday celebration
party, quite inconvenient because I don’t know anybody. That was the time when
I realize I can never keep out with his lifestyle. I just can’t crash anyone’s
party when I’m not invited. My confidence and impertinence do not extend to
such activity.
When
we arrived to his room, I was already put in a hot seat. He asked me whether I
want to start dating him or not. So I asked, what’s dating in Czech R., in
response to my query, he said: watching movie, going out together, sex... Okay,
I heard enough, I’m not in. So what if I am 25 and I never have sex? I cannot
live to such expectation, I cannot change the way I am and force myself to do
it just to get a man. I’d rather be single for the rest of my life. He was
laughing at me because he thinks its lame. I must have lived my life in church
because I didn’t know anything else. We were sitting across to each other and
he was massaging my foot. Asking some questions which I answered with all
honesty. Until, he reached out his arms and was trying to pull me closer. So I
asked whether if he wants to hug me. I hugged him. We stayed like that for
quite a while. He asked if he can kiss me, I said no. I think I said, I don’t
want to start a fire, because it might get addicting. I gave-in in the end. I
allowed him to kiss me. So, the kiss? I don’t know.
He
played a music, lit a Buddha candle, I think it is used for praying, anyway, he
pulled me. I don’t know if we’re supposed to dance, so I asked. We danced. I
was stepping on his feet and he was carrying my weight while dancing. It’s very
sweet. Until, he led me to the bed… and I was like… no! He assured me, we’re
not going to have sex. I feel at ease. We were lying in the bed, he was cuddling
me, and I was hugging him. Kissing. Caressing my body. Talking. I swear, I feel
like I’m not myself anymore. I cannot believed I allowed him to do all that. I
thought I’m not just a flirt but also a slut. He was clingy, but I like it. He
asked me to stay for the night, but I will not give in. I do not like the idea
no matter how comfortable I was in his arms. It’s not right. See, I’m so
rational. He even bribed me of preparing omelette for breakfast. He can be
childish as well. Okay, back to the kiss! It was indulging for sure, but, I
didn’t feel anything. I was just kissing, that’s it. There’s no spark? But I do like when I was
hugging him and burying my face to his chest. Was it because I feel protected
only? I thought I like him. Surely I do. But to what extent? I did not feel the
same attraction I felt to someone 2 years ago that made me purchased a plane
ticket and escaped for 1 month considering that person was just beside me, no skinship
at all, just his presence made my heart beat faster!
Whenever
I know he is around, my eyes is searching for him but I will not look at him. I
like it when he is near me, and it’s okay too if he is not around. But why is
that whenever I look at him, my heart melt and I would like to take care of
this person? He’s just like baby, I wish he will always be like this so I can
take care of him, encourage him, coz whenever he is tough and rough as he
always seems to be, I have no place.
The
evening ends when I managed to freed myself from his embrace. A good bye kiss
to end the day. Ah, when I was on my way back to G dorm, I met this guys from France,
and other countries. I was really cornered and don’t how to get out. They keep
talking to me… and I was like… I want to go... they hold me back for quite a
while and keep asking me whether I’m interested in learning Czech. I said no. I
told them “Bye guys, goodnight” and jerked away as fast as I can. Finally, I
was able to escape! Day ends.
16th
February 28, 2015. I visited him in
his; fetched me outside jih dorm. As soon as we are inside his room, he played
this Japanese anime “akira” and I sat in his chair until he asked me to stand up
and he sat in the chair and I ended up sitting in his lap while my arms wrapped
around his shoulder. We’re like that while eating the dried mango and chocolate
I brought. Cheesy kiss from biting the other part of dried mango. I handed him
dried mango and chocolate. Sweet isn’t it? After 20 or 30 minutes, he paused
the movie and play music… Thought we’re going to dance, but we didn’t. He laid
me in his bed and cuddled me again. He is so touchy! Kissing and Hugging. This
time, I clarified this dating issue and asked him whether if HE is willing to
date me considering my terms. Told him I’m obstinate, unpredictable, there’s no
assurance when will I agree to have sex with him… he has to win my heart first…
it can be tomorrow, next week, next month, on my birthday, his birthday, don’t
know. I’m surprised, he agreed. I asked him to convince me why I should date
him. Haha… I don’t remember what he said! I do remember him asking me why I
like him… is it because I’m blonde, I’m white, I’m exotic.. I wanted to slap
his face that moment, but then again, I just answered him why. I like him
because he is like me. I really don’t like the idea of him going somewhere
alone, it makes me feel bad, even he enjoys doing it alone, like I do, there’s
still this kind of feeling that makes you feel empty. I don’t want him to feel
it. That’s why I was offering my companion. Plus, we share same interest and we
are both weird and mad. He also asked me what I like for a guy… I don’t
remember ever saying. How can I have? I don’t even want to have a boyfriend. So
when he asked me before if I want to date him, I said no… but when we went to
EFG reception, and there are 3 vacant chairs, he sat at the end, and I sat on
the opposite end… when suddenly he pulled me beside him and before I knew, I
was already in his arms and he was holding my hands. I looked at his face and I
can see how sad he is when I told him I don’t want to date him… then I asked
him he has to go because he has class next day, but instead told me… he wants
to be with me more. Damn it. How can I let go of this very sweet man? My mind
is already in turmoil.
It’s
official, we’re a couple. He is my boyfriend, I’m his girlfriend. I even
told him what it would be like if I were his girlfriend… I’ll be the sweet,
kind and nicest gf, I will never clip his wings, I will always support him to
whatever endeavour he wants to pursue, I will never get jealous whenever he is
with other girls, because I met him as a friendly outgoing guy, and besides, he
is not as sweet with other girls. I don’t care. I’ll be faithful and thoughtful
J I even said something
so cheesy and he was laughing on it. Ah, I recited a poem for him… please my
angel of love, be the wings through which I am excluded from the untouched
perils of this world, lead me onto the uncommonly serene payment where all
hatred is exiled, tell me you’re here when I need you, hold me in your arms
when I’m with you, and with the gentle stroke of your wondrous fingers touch my
lips, hold me until my fears subsides and the darkness has drifted off.”
He
was kind of pushy when it comes to touching his body, any part, so in the end I
touched ‘his’. The naïve I was so hesitant at first but curiosity grows… and I
asked the size and shape and how it will fit in if it’s big! I also asked the
sex positions. I’m so ashamed of myself! This is like sex education. We
continued watching movie, and we drank Zatec beer from his hometown. The
playful I, took a sip and transfer it through mouth to mouth kiss. He copied
what I did. Told me it was his first time doing it. He was still trying to take
off my clothes and I keep on stopping him… the sex education continued when he
take off all his clothes! I don’t know if he was trying to seduce me or he was
trying to make fun of me, or to really educate me because I mentioned I’ve
never seen a naked man in my whole life and yet I’m 25 years old. I was sitting legs cross, arm cross and the
object of my admiration take off his clothes and I swear, my face is a red as
red! Couldn’t even open my eyes and lift my head. I look up and saw him. OMG! I
want to escape that room immediately. Touching it is different when it’s in
full view. I’m so scared. How How How! My god… if we are to have sex on the
future, that body… that... I’m speechless. I was begging for him to put on his
clothes but he is a
tease, he won’t. He only put back on his brief, so I can still see
‘his’. He laid me again to the bed and cuddled me. Tease never end… He still
trying to unbutton my shirt, and remove my belt. We managed to finish the movie though and he
made me change my mind and I decided to stay for a night. I wore his t-shirt,
and he lend me his short which made me look even smaller. He was making fun of
me. I asked him to turn around while I was changing. We laid and hug each
other. He keeps saying he likes my scent and that my skin is so soft. He
finally gained access to my legs because I am only wearing short. Even told me,
I was hot or if I have fever. We slept.
Great feeling for sure. I can hear his heart beating so fast, I asked why… he
said, people who are in love have a fast heartbeat… but he is not in love. I
have an instant pillow and blanket… his arms and his legs… thick and heavy
though. When I woke up in the morning, I saw how he looks so angelic when he
was sleeping. I couldn’t leave. I don’t have the heart to leave when he is
looking like that! I left at 10:30, and gave him a goodbye kiss which awoken
him. Day ends.
17th
March 2, 2015. I visited him to his dorm. His roomie was there though
engage into his laptop. I brought him a desert I made when I was in Melnik and
in exchange, had me ate the pastry his grandmother baked. He really can’t stand
not kissing me, so even in the presence of his roomie, he kept kissing me and
laid me down in his bed and cuddled me. We
were like that until 12am. He said I was clingy, and I told him he was the one
who is clingy! Even asked me how come I missed him when we only haven’t seen
each other for 26 hours or less, and I told him it was him and not me!!! Asked
me if I hate it, I said no. I love it. I wish he will be clingier, that only
means, I am becoming an important part of his daily lives. I also appreciate
that he asked me why I haven’t change my facebook status, and if my family and
friends know about him. So I asked him why he didn’t change his. He said, to
whom? Because I don’t want to make mine public as I don’t like being asked. I’m
really loving this guy. He is considerate. Same goes with public display of
affection. He doesn’t force me. Day ends with more kisses as I will not be
seeing him for 2 days or so.
Ps.
I love when he kissed me in the elevator. Really reminds me of 50 shades of
grey. He’ll hate me if I tell it to him. He despises that movie. J
18th
March 3, 2015. There’s no doubt that this University is really small. I
bumped into him today, well, I don’t really notice him. He noticed me and just
a little hi and hello. I wanted to hold his hand. This is bad!
We
met late night, he invited me to go to Kruhac and met him in the EGF lobby;
when we arrived in Kruhac, there’s so many people so we’ve decided to just join
Ada and the others in G221. I remember saying to Ada “the night is still
young”. Usual, I easily get drunk and he
helped me finish my drinks. My handsome boyfriend started getting intimate to
me, touching me in front of everyone, since I’m drunk already, I was just going
along with him. Damn it, who cares. He was teasing me about the post I had on
my blog about my classmates married and having a child. Told him, that if I
didn’t reject those guys who had shown interest in me, I’ll be married now and
was like… NO NO NO.
Since
I’ll be away for 2 weeks, I teased him that he can cheat on me, just don’t let
me ever caught him. He said why I will do that. My boyfie is so cute. J I asked how are we
gonna communicate since I’ll be away for 2 weeks and I will not be often in
facebook, he said, he can stand it. I wish he said something different, like he
will find away, or that, I’ll always be in his mind… he didn’t. Quite
disappointed. He was also disappointed when I chose to be with my classmate
this weekend instead of going with him in his hometown. I really don’t like
being parade and it feels awkward to be in his parent’s presence.
He
will be celebrating his name birthday so he wants to be with me, told him I’ll
make amends in his real birthday, but he said he will be busy because of the
state exam… I’ll find a way to support him every step of the way. Told him, girls don’t like being asked
always.
I
had a silly notion lastnight, I invited him to go to my room knowing my roomie
is there… and he mustn’t make any sound. We left G221 and went to my room.
Showed him my little haven, and closed the door. He went to the connected
kitchen-bathroom and I was sitting beside the door like a little child. He
pulled me into the other room and had me stood in the shower step so we will be
of same height. Kiss. Nonstop kiss. OMG. He probably found the place
uncomfortable so he asked me to go to the stairs instead. I thought we’re going
to sit and have me cuddle so I sat as soon as we arrived. He pulled me up and
kiss me. I knew I’m really drunk but I’m enjoying the kiss so much that I want
be just like that. He keeps telling me that I was clingy and that I love him.
Because I told him in chat that “it’s crazy, it’s like you read my mind”, it
was really true. I really want to go to Kruhac instead of G221, I’d rather hear
loud music and dance to forget my problem in my presentation. I told him that
instead of trying to seduce me, because it’s not working for me. He has to win
my heart. But he said, I’m already in love with him. I asked why, he said,
because the look in my eyes, full of affection. I asked how, and he mimicked
me. OMG, he’s so cute. I have no idea what he sees in my eyes whether its
affection or not. But I certainly care for him, Love? I don’t know. I asked him
what is it to be in love… He said, you always wants to be with that person,
wants to hold his hands, heart beat fast, always think of him, I don’t remember
the others, but I am pretty sure, I don’t feel all those. I do the things with
others too without feeling of awkwardness. So when I was trying to kiss him, he
was like, why are you kissing me? You don’t like me. Silly he could be! I just
want to cuddle and hug him forever. I told him, that I want him to love me
first before I love him so that he cannot hurt me, but it wasn’t right. It’s
unfair. It has to be gradual. I will not try to make him love me, I’ll act the
way I always want to be. I really care for him, I wanted to take care of him, I
want to make him happy, to help him in whatever he is doing, and I want to be
the light whenever he is in the dark. Was that love? But he never make my heart beat like a rocket
space, I think of him everyday, but I never wish that he is always beside me.
Enough of my thoughts. I asked him why he was not trying to win my heart? He
said, he did in star gazing… What??? Told him, I thought he was an asshole that
time, even in the reception. Ah, I remember telling him also that when he asked
me why I like him, whether is it because he is white, he blonde, he is exotic…
and that I wanted to slap him that moment! How can he think that way!!! I
really hate him. What makes blonde, white, exotic? It’s ridiculous. I clearly
remember telling him that I find Spanish guys hot and handsome but then, I’d
rather be beside him. Because I like him. He said he miss me so much and really
wanted to kiss me but since I don’t like public display of affection, he
didn’t. I salute him for that. He said, he likes me because I’m attractive,
pretty, witty, what else? I’m overwhelmed. Made me feel love. He finally called
me “my dear and sweetie”, I asked why… he never say those before… Look at me
earnestly and said, you are always my dear. My heart flutters that I hugged him
tightly and kissed him goodbye. My absolute boyfriend.
19th
March 4, 2015. I bumped into him in JIH lobby. I was on my way out with
Diana and I saw him, he saw me too. My handsome boyfriend in orange… He waited
for me, and we had a casual talk. I introduced Diana to him… Something must be
wrong with me, I swear, I felt something. As if I wanted to hug him, I want to
be with him. He’s becoming the sunshine of my eyes. We took different paths and
I said goodbye, while he said, see you later. Damn. I like him a lot.
He
invited me to go in JIH for the night, but I declined, told him I am so lazy
which is partly true. Asked him to go in my dorm instead, I’m surprised because
he did agree. He went to my dorm and we spent some time in the stairs. Another
public display of affection. He doesn’t remember what happened between us the
other night, kinda upset. He stayed for couple of minutes only. I was suddenly, unsure of this man. I don’t
know why.
20th
March 5, 2015. Fate allow us to meet in
dejvicka. Just the right time I needed someone to lean on. I was so down
because of this visa and flight issue I had. I took the bus 107 bound for my
university and I was so surprised when he sat beside me. Looking handsome as
ever. I was cold so he held my hands. He invited me to go to his dorm for lunch
and tea. When we get off at the bus station, he didn’t let go of my mind until
we reached his room. My sweet boyfriend prepared hot tea to warm me up and
cuddled me. He also prepared a lunch for the two of us and we slept
together. I don’t feel cold anymore,
we’re like that for maybe 2 hours or so.
I left to help me friend. A goodbye kiss to end the day… oh, I supposed
to meet him a little later.
I
met him for the event in CTU, the place is totally packed. We were publicly
displaying affection. We played a game and I beat him! Hurray!!! We drank beer
and dance and kissed. It was a fan evening. We left before 11 and go back to
dorm. He was so persistent in crashing someone else party in 4th
floor. Bought beers and went to 4th floor, flirting each other way
around. Kissing publicly. He is not even drunk. We spent time in the EFG
reception to talk things over, and then, we both need to pee, so I told him my
room will be fine because my roommate is already sleeping. I sneaked him into
the toilet, and he pulled me inside and asked me to help him! He is so crazy. I
knew he was teasing me. To make the matters worse, Casi and Kelly both knock on
the door and I told them “I am here” I don’t really know what to do, and Tomas
keeps laughing at me. It was madness! We managed to get out of the room and he
has to leave. But before that, I told him about my gift, and he was interested
in seeing it. I was kinda ashamed of it because it wasn’t well done properly.
He said, he appreciates it, because no one has ever done something like that
for him. It was such as sweet evening. I hope we will be like that everyday.
It’s so dreamy. Evening ends. I wonder where the constellation box is now. Did
he keep it? Or throw it away.
21st
March 8, 2015. I visited him in the JIH, because he is working. I gave him the
chocolate he asked me to bring from Vienna. I actually made a little game, gave
him 3 options. 1st he will have 2 packs of chocolate but no hugs and
kisses until I left prague 2nd He will have 1 pack of chocolate but
no hugs and kisses for 4 days 3rd 3 pieces of chocolate and hugs and
kisses everyday. He said it was unfair, but chose 3 instead. Sent him a photo
of the chocolate his missed for choosing 3, and said “You demon” haha... it was
funny.
When
I arrived in JIH, I gave him 1 pack of chocolate, I was just teasing him. I appreciate his kind effort of reassuring
whether I’m fine, because I have fever.
MARCH
11, 2015. I’m so tired of writing our story. I’m surprised lastnight when I
asked him how much he knows about it, he knows a lot. I think the only thing he
doesn’t know is that he has no idea how to make me love him. This is the end of
my story.
==
I
hate him when he laugh because I was the object of his laughter. Sometimes, I
like him when he won’t speak at all and just look at me and smile.
We
have different temperament, different personality, different in everything.
He
is considerate… he always thought of this “impolite thing” and he doesn’t
force.
He
will never decide for you, you always have the choice. I don’t know whether
it’s good or bad. As of now, 2/27/2015
12:57pm, I do not anticipate seeing him, not miss him.
==
Chat
Conversation –
January 23, 2015
How
should I start? Shall I retrieve our history? He was annoying in chat as he is
whenever he is in the reception for work.
It
is I, who first initiated the chat conversation, I even added him on fb. So he
thought, I was head over heels to him. Silly man. Well, that is partly true. I
will not deny that the second time I met him I was so mesmerized by his eyes,
though I don’t even remember the color of his eyes. I couldn’t forget how I
behaved badly. So searched the facebook
kingdom! Lucky, found him connected to Ada. I couldn’t even hardly recognize
him so I took chances whether I got the correct person.
We
talked few things about Asians, language, culture differences, how we met, professions,
his work as a receptionist, documentaries, his interest in sciences, astronomy,
OMG, I initiated the conversation on this aspects, and this is what he
remembers! I can’t believe it until I saw the dates myself!
He
had this final take for his exam, and was quite down. I said something that
lifted his spirit. I wish him goodluck for his exam but later on taking it back
because I thought Luck has good and bad side. I suggested to ask for his
classmates help to lessen the frustration. Also, told him to think positive,
that perhaps he will get better set of problems to simulate and that there’s
always light at the end of the tunnel. And final advice: “Funny indeed!
There’s no point in keeping yourself awake if it doesn’t help you understand
anything. Just sleep and worry about it when you wake up. Don’t go to the
battle without a weapon. Bring not only knowledge but also optimism. Best
wishes!”
The
next day, he said he is still depressed before taking his exam but he passed!
January
31, 2015, when he starts initiating the conversation. We talked about ice skating,
pilsen, Erasmus, and finally my exam date that I have to tell him “the soldier
has to prepare for her battle the next day” and wishes me take care and
goodluck. I failed though. Haha. He shared photos of him playing the saxophone,
apparently, he has also love for music as much I do but never really get a
chance to do it when he was young. He likes saxophone and I like the piano and
violin.
He
invited me once more in the reception which I declined. Told him I don’t like standing, but it’s
actually true. It’s so awkward and uncomfortable. We’ve been teasing because I
won’t be able to see the model he was working on and that he will not bring it
tomorrow. I enjoy doing crafts when I was young, from painting, sketching,
writings, collage, mosaic, artsy crafts, even clothes designing, name it and
I’ve done it. My favourite one is my science project. I made green, orange and
blue crystals out of an object. It was illuminating when exposed to light.
Next,
he invited me to join a sushi food event, and started talking about stars and
astronomy. This man has no idea that I wanted to become an astronaut and a
scientist! I could have spent my entire night looking at the sky, and will wake
up early in the morning to see how beautiful the sky is. Full of stars! I can
connect the stars to form a shape, even my name!
Talks
about 50 shades of grey, etc. Hmm, he was becoming nicer in this chat
conversation since the last time I visited him in the reception, and after the
star gazing and a tea in his room!
The
next day, he was complaining of his leg fatigue so told him “ he could have
said no, instead of going to another place last night and sleep early., He said
“ he wanted to be with me more” which I completely ignore. I do not wish to
misunderstand anything. Keeps inviting to reception, obviously very bored man.
We
had this crazy conversation when I told him he was a mystery to me. The
misunderstanding begun! I love the part when he described Czechs are like
coconut. I swear I had to bite my lips to hold back my laughter. He thought I want to date him. It never even
cross my mind. I just enjoy his company. I cannot imagine being with someone
else, and I don’t know what to expect either. I think it’s gonna be
uncomfortable. I can’t even be comfortable when he is around.
Oh
well, things has changed now, I am now considering whether I have to date this
man as of 3:43PM, 2/28/2015.