Dear Diary,
How can you say you have fallen in love? Have you ever been in love? I cannot answer it if I don't know what love is. Just what the hell is LOVE? I read definitions on the web, but it doesn't satisfy my curiosity.
When I was a 17, I knew of this man, he is a almost 10 years older than me. I really enjoy his company, he was the first man I had the longest conversation. I never get bored. He was such a good companion. I believed I love him, but I never see my future with him. When we separate ways, I cried. Is it because I love him? Or because I lost a great companion? A great friend? I don't know at all.
When I was 19, I had a short relationship with my classmate. I hated him for he lied to me, and didn't talk to him for 2 years. But now, we are good friends. I don't know if I love him at all, he was my obsession because I know I cannot have him even now.
I just want a simple love, and a simple life. However, finding a true love is a whole life adventure. Some people who are married find it even harder to keep their relationship works. It's not even easy to find a true friend!
Yours Truly,
Crazy Georgie, a loveless princess
Signed May 30, 2014
Friday, May 30, 2014
Thursday, May 29, 2014
A Recollection of Thoughts
Dear Diary,
People can get very sentimental over things of the past. Just like now, I was reading my email back in 2007 and 2012. I can see how immature I was but at least I was happy. I can't really believe I had said those things, and I acted those ways.
I miss the people I was once knew. I miss talking to them. I may have grown old, but not wise. For I have certainly accomplished several things, I had traveled a lot, I have met good people... and during those times.. I was contented! Looking back, my dream was simple, but now, feels like my dreams have gone so high. I can't stay in one place, I wish everyday to end immediately. I cannot stand it. I have gone too far. I have said things I shouldn't say and I have to keep apologizing for my behavior. I cannot control myself at all. I am wild. I am utterly mad.
I miss talking to Mr. J. "time is needed for plants to grow", just how much time I needed in order to grow? I miss the old days when you are "rain" and I'm "sunshine", we bring comfort to each other.
I insanely miss Mr. N the most. When he used to be "charm" and I used to be "silly" Where did I go wrong? What have I done to completely lose great people. And I wasn't even able to retain my sanity.
I've been enjoying teasing Mr. Y, the guy I was obsessed way back to college days, maybe because I know I can never have him.
I still wish to have amnesia someday but not a poor memory. Oh cmon! Who would want to be forgetful at young age? :D
I'll try to send Mr. N another message today, I really want to win him back!
I wish I am "an Alice" that I can always go back to "wonderland" and don't have to stay here in "Overland" in which I clearly don't belong. But I am just "a wanderer", and can only keep moving forward. there's no point of wishing that I can go back time when I used to be simple and happy. Just me and Randall[doll], my sketchpad and books.. and Mr. N.. But now, I wanted to have everything! it's crazy!
Yours Truly,
Mad Georgie
Signd May 29, 2014
Ps. I am so happy to inform you that I got admission to University of Vienna!
People can get very sentimental over things of the past. Just like now, I was reading my email back in 2007 and 2012. I can see how immature I was but at least I was happy. I can't really believe I had said those things, and I acted those ways.
I miss the people I was once knew. I miss talking to them. I may have grown old, but not wise. For I have certainly accomplished several things, I had traveled a lot, I have met good people... and during those times.. I was contented! Looking back, my dream was simple, but now, feels like my dreams have gone so high. I can't stay in one place, I wish everyday to end immediately. I cannot stand it. I have gone too far. I have said things I shouldn't say and I have to keep apologizing for my behavior. I cannot control myself at all. I am wild. I am utterly mad.
I miss talking to Mr. J. "time is needed for plants to grow", just how much time I needed in order to grow? I miss the old days when you are "rain" and I'm "sunshine", we bring comfort to each other.
I insanely miss Mr. N the most. When he used to be "charm" and I used to be "silly" Where did I go wrong? What have I done to completely lose great people. And I wasn't even able to retain my sanity.
I've been enjoying teasing Mr. Y, the guy I was obsessed way back to college days, maybe because I know I can never have him.
I still wish to have amnesia someday but not a poor memory. Oh cmon! Who would want to be forgetful at young age? :D
I'll try to send Mr. N another message today, I really want to win him back!
I wish I am "an Alice" that I can always go back to "wonderland" and don't have to stay here in "Overland" in which I clearly don't belong. But I am just "a wanderer", and can only keep moving forward. there's no point of wishing that I can go back time when I used to be simple and happy. Just me and Randall[doll], my sketchpad and books.. and Mr. N.. But now, I wanted to have everything! it's crazy!
Yours Truly,
Mad Georgie
Signd May 29, 2014
Ps. I am so happy to inform you that I got admission to University of Vienna!
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