Thursday, May 29, 2014

A Recollection of Thoughts

posted by Georgie on Thursday, May 29, 2014
Dear Diary,

People can get very sentimental over things of the past. Just like now, I was reading my email back in 2007 and 2012. I can see how immature I was but at least I was happy. I can't really believe I had said those things, and I acted those ways.

I miss the people I was once knew. I miss talking to them. I may have grown old, but not wise. For I have certainly accomplished several things, I had traveled a lot, I have met good people... and during those times.. I was contented! Looking back, my dream was simple, but now, feels like my dreams have gone so high. I can't stay in one place, I wish everyday to end immediately. I cannot stand it. I have gone too far. I have said things I shouldn't say and I have to keep apologizing for my behavior. I cannot control myself at all. I am wild. I am utterly mad.

I miss talking to Mr. J. "time is needed for plants to grow", just how much time I needed in order to grow? I miss the old days when you are "rain" and I'm "sunshine", we bring comfort to each other.

I insanely miss Mr. N the most. When he used to be "charm" and I used to be "silly" Where did I go wrong? What have I done to completely lose great people. And I wasn't even able to retain my sanity.

I've been enjoying teasing Mr. Y, the guy I was obsessed way back to college days, maybe because I know I can never have him.

I still wish to have amnesia someday but not a poor memory. Oh cmon! Who would want to be forgetful at young age? :D

I'll try to send Mr. N another message today, I really want to win him back!

I wish I am "an Alice" that I can always go back to "wonderland" and don't have to stay here in "Overland" in which I clearly don't belong. But I am just "a wanderer", and can only keep moving forward. there's no point of wishing that I can go back time when I used to be simple and happy. Just me and Randall[doll], my sketchpad and books.. and Mr. N.. But now, I wanted to have everything! it's crazy!

Yours Truly,
Mad Georgie
Signd May 29, 2014

Ps. I am so happy to inform you that I got admission to University of Vienna!

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